One thing I like about crying is that it eases the pain in my heart. It feels like the pain that i had inside jus roll down my face and leave my body. In the end, I jus feel better, lighter in the heart.
One thing I hate about cry is that it makes the pain reality. I keep on thinking that the pain is not real; therefore, I ignore it and continue on living my life. But once the uncontrollable tears start to roll down my face, it hits me; the pain that I have ignored and kept inside of me is real. No matter how hard I try to convince myself that there is no pain, there’s nothing, in the end it just hit me harder when I’m lying in bed crying.
So I guess crying is a bittersweet thing. I jus want to more sweet than bitter.
Erghhh I have been cleaning the whole morning till now. And i havent eaten anything yet. :’[
Im hungryyy. Blehhh.
<3 haha :D he was sooo into watching the season finale of project runway with me
Double Fail. This is gonna go on your list Alma
| Me: | Are you pmsing? |
|---|---|
| Alma: | pmsing? 0_0 |
| Me: | you dont know whats pms? -.- |
| Alma: | lol no...ahha. Whats that |
| Me: | Wow, and you call yourself a girl.... |
| Alma: | lmao wtf!! |
| Me: | Go google it. Its your period... -.- |
| Alma: | ohhhhhhhhhh hahaha |
| Me: | Horrible! Fail! |
| And they called me the slow one.... -.- |
Hawter. Ehehehe.
This use to be my wallpaper for my iPod. No homo.
Pooped
Ohh mannn, I’m so hot and pooped right now. So I cleaned the whole upstairs today. Blehhh. Just finish. So right now I’m jus laying right in the middle of my stairsway. Ehehe. I wonder what should I do today? I really should start on my essay so I don’t have to stay up all night on Sunday to do it. But knowing me, I would most likely be doing that. Blehhh.
I just realize that this post isn’t emo-ish Ehehe yay! :D
Somebody to Love …
… by justin bieber!! Omg! Lol that kid is so friggen adorable. :)
ANYWAYS, Still hanging here with work and school and michael.
I made him a bracelet! And one for myself too. The one i originally made for him ended up being mines and the one originally mines is his now. lol He better wear that thang forevaaaar! We’ll see when i see him on sunday.
I’m SO glad I have a sunday off! Omg! The first time I get a sunday off without requesting it. SO HAPPY! Cus I get to finally go to church .. not mines. lol Buttt its gonna be another church. Sophias church! The 3 crosses church in CV. The big one. lol I loooove that church! Omg its so inspiring, i cant wait. I’ve been wanting to go to a good church for hecka long man. Its been too long.
Then afterwards probably go get some breakfast with her, and then go home, and then hang out with michael later at another friends house and have me a can of tecate <3 yum :) Caaant wait til sunday. aaaah :D
It’s suck..
How I keep on replaying those memories in my head; it’s like a broken tape recorder that keeps on playing over and over. It has been over two months and i still haven’t stop thinking about you for a single day. I miss you. We miss you.
Hawt.
